Magnificent failure

I had a class ask me to think about Magnificent Failures. But what is that-what does that mean? I know that for the class it was supposed to be an attempt to grapple with a challenging topic. Maybe it was a hard concept, one that didn't make sense right away-but when returned to gave new insight. I think this was mostly for the undergrads to attempt to wrestle with topics on racism, sexism, homophobia etc that they may never have been exposed to. For me I wrote mainly about being exposed to undergraduates again. I mean it wasn't that long ago since I was one and def not as long ago as teaching them, I felt they would be my ultimate Magnificent Failure. That was all until I hit week seven.

What does is feel like to live most days in pain? I don't really remember because so much of my life I have been dealing with chronic pain. Painful periods, bladder infections, infections here and there and pretty much everywhere. I don't know what it is like to live pain-free only what it is like to cope with and manage pain on a daily basis. It all hit me my sock to the groin that seventh week-everything came to a head and exploded inside my body. I sought the opinions of doctors-their solutions were to run a bunch of tests and give me pain medication.

Pain medication:that might have to be my biggest Magnificent Failure. I don't want to blame it all on my body- I don't think it is my body that did the most failing. Its rough when you see a bunch of doctors and nurses and they all want to know what you're on and when you last took it and you have to spout off at least three different medications for pain. U should have kept a notebook to remember when and what I took-because sometimes a I barely remembered my name let alone the medicine. And the side effects0the worst one was that I just couldn't keep a though in my mind. The medicine and the pain being so debilitating that anytime I would try to keep up with my homework read or write something my eyesight would become fuzzy and I would get dizzy and sick to my stomach.